Servo Quod Lost In In Man’s Terra
It’s a Dump Filled with abusive and in appropriate subjects and expressions if you are not cool with that go away, if you are then feel free to step right in :)

Sometimes, I wonder if this would be all what life has to offer and If  I will still want to be around.
Sometimes, I think that I am living beside every one Else’s waiting for what I have no idea.
Sometimes, I think I am not like every one else which is not a good thing, wouldn’t it be better if I was just another typical dumb girl.
Sometimes, I think about the dead to the extend that I over look the living.
Sometimes, I feel so filled with words that nothing comes out at all.
Sometimes, I think I have a glitch in my mind that makes it work in a way different from other people.
Sometimes, I feel life is just a passage we take to something bigger.
Sometimes, I feel like I want to fade away.
Sometimes, I think that I think too much.
Sometimes, I want to go the roof top and scream my lungs out.
Sometimes, I feel like I am chasing a mirage.
Sometimes, I want to be cruel and mean just for the fuck of it.
Sometimes, the things I like the most seems completely and utterly meaningless.
Sometimes, I feel that I should be somewhere else doing something else but have no clue what that is.
Sometimes, I want to be like a burning cigarette that just burns out and die in a flicker.
Sometimes, I wish I was a butterfly.
Sometimes, I think I am like the fallen angel.
Sometimes, I hate everyone around including myself.
Sometimes, I miss being numb.
Sometimes, I think I would rather be hurt and alone than loved and accompanied.
Sometimes, I feel like I am a conundrum that is not supposed to be understood even by me.
Sometimes, I miss the agonizing feeling of a blade cutting through your skin.
Sometimes, I wish I was a movie that eventually will end with the credit list.
Sometimes, I feel like saying meaningless things like this post.

A musical tag exists and I did not do it sounds like a wrong thing to do so I got it through hurricane_x blog and decided to do it and pass it on. Come on its nice *Evil Grin*

Pulling sleeves up, here we go



1. Put your iTunes/music player on Shuffle,

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer,


After you’ve answered all of the questions, tag 5 other people and then let them know they’ve been tagged to do them themselves.



Super Massive Black Hole  – Muse (That sounds weird)


Dude Looks like a lady – Aerosmith (Shit this is bad)


Paper Boy – Stabilo Boss (Mmm.. does that mean I have a thing for the paper boy, that sounds deviant)


Through the Glass – Stone Sour (yes, most of the time I do).


The Truth – Bad Apple (That sounds honest)


The Shadow of Life – Abney Park (how Lucky I am a shadow)


Living on my Own – Freddy Mercury (Oh I Wish )


Pride – Seether (Mmmm could be true)


Let Go – Red (Mmmmm A lot did to be honest)


Witch Cult – Abney Park (Shame on him and he did not ask me to join , C’mon I would make a good witch)


Its amazing – Jem (Yeah Right)


Going down in Flames – 3 Doors Down (Oooooops)


I am the one – Seether (who will think that exactly)


Coming Home – Scorpions (I would be nuts to dance in my wedding PERIOD)


In Bloom – Nirvana (Ahhh okie)


The Outlaw Torn – Metallica (I have a vague idea now where my honey moon would be 8)


Ashes to Ashes – Hans Zimmer ( Morbid)


Break Stuff – Limp Bizkit (They will not be pleased)


Something Stupid – Frank Sinatra Ft. Nancy Sinatra (That sounds about it)


Hey Mamma – Black Eyed Peas (that’s just embarrassing)

I am tagging Shamel, Maram, Mazen, Paul, and anyone who likes this post feel free to do it 8)


I was always facinated by how idiotic people can be and hence was always on the search of stories that backed up my notion that some people are just created DUMB. During my search I stumbled across a perfect website called The Darwin Awards where they search and award Real Life Idiotic Stories.. Below is a taste..


1- A One Track Mind 

(16 July 2008, Italy) Gerhard, 68, was queued at a traffic light in his Porsche Cayenne sportscar. Before one reaches the light, there is a railroad crossing, and Gerhard had not let the queue progress forward far enough before he drove onto the tracks. As you might imagine, given Murphy’s Law, a train was coming. The safety bars came down, leaving the Porsche trapped on the rails. According to witnesses, it took the driver awhile to realize he was stuck. Finally he jumped from the car and started to run–straight toward the oncoming train, waving his arms in an attempt to save his sportscar! The attempt was partly successful. The car received less damage than its owner, who landed 30 meters away. Attempts to revive him were unsuccessful.

The moral of the story? Momentum always wins.

2- Midnight Special

(21 December 1992, North Carolina) Ken Charles Barger, 47, accidentally shot himself to death in December in Newton, when, awakening to the sound of a ringing telephone beside his bed, he reached for the phone but grabbed instead a Smith & Wesson .38 Special, which discharged when he drew it to his ear. (I always thought midnight calls are a hustle)

3-Macho Men? 

Some men will got to extraordinary lengths to prove how macho they are. Frenchman Pierre Pumpille recentlyshunted a stationary car two feet by headbutting it. “Women thought I was a god,” he explained from his hospital bed.Deity or not, however, Pumpille is a veritable girl’s blouse compared to Polish farmer Krystof Azninski, who staked a strong claim to being Europe’s most macho man by cutting off his own head in 1995. Azninski, 30, had been drinking with friends when it was suggested they strip naked and play some “men’s games”. Initially they hit each other over the head with frozen turnips, but then one man upped the ante by seizing a chainsaw and cutting off the end of his foot. Not to be outdone, Azninski grabbed the saw and, shouting “Watch this then,” he swung at his own head and chopped it off. “It’s funny,” said one companion, “when he was young he put on his sister’s underwear. But he died like a man.”  (No Comment really)

Now you pick which is DUMBER? Cause it Beats the hell out of me 8)

THE OBLIGATORY PART: Go to your favorite search engine and enter your FIRST name and the word NEEDS in quotes (” [Your name] needs”), and see what comes up. List the first 10 sentences that make sense and then tag some of your friends – and don’t forget to tag me back too! I followed instructions -this is what I got…

1.       Sarah Needs  a cold shower. (Well May be I do 😉

2.       Sarah needs to get her life back and establish herself as the person in charge. (Yes, Asses BE WARE)

3.       Sarah Needs More Love. (Who doesn’t)

4.       Sarah Needs Your Manly Vote. (I knew I should get into politics)

5.       Sara needs to hand him one of those weapons that went off without warning. (Very Nice idea *Evil Grin*)

6.       Sarah needs sponsors to compete in Deaf Olympics. (Oh I knew I was special somehow)

7.       Sarah needs advice. (This  I definitely need)

8.       Sarah needs a new mummy for sale. (A good new side business?)

9.       Sarah Needs Deprived, weak men for obedience and corrective training. (Is there any other kind? 8)

10.    Sarah Needs To Cut Down On The Overtime!! (Oh man now you are talking) 


Whoever wants to do it feel free to try it  out. 


Where Do We Draw The Line?

On your palm an endless wonder
Lines that speak the truth without a sound
In your eyes awaits the tireless hunger
Already looks for prey to run down

So why do we keep up this charade
How do we tell apart the time to leave from the time to wait

What does tomorrow want with me
What does it matter what I see
If it can’t be my design
Tell me where do we draw the line

The dance of flames and shadows in the street
Make poetry nobody’s ever heard
The weight of loneliness stands on your feet
The cage already there around the bird

So why don’t we join the masquerade
Before it all falls apart before our love becomes insatiate

What does tomorrow want with me
What does it matter what I see
If I can’t choose my own design
Tell me where do we draw the line

Where’s the cooling wind
Where’s the evergreen field
Where’s my mother’s open arms
Where’s my father lionheart
S’like the sun’s gone down
Sleeps in the hallowed ground now
With the autumn’s browns leaves
With the one who never grieves

What does tomorrow want with me
What does it matter what I see
If we all walk behind the blind
Tell me where do we draw the line

Whatever tomorrow wants from me
At least I’m here, at least I’m free
Free to choose to see the signs
This is my line


Yes there is jusitce after all, Heath Ledger may he rest in peace won an Oscar for Best supporting role in the noir movie “The Dark Night” For his role as The Joker. The Award was given to his family. 

Ledger would be the first actor to win a posthumous best actor Oscar since Peter Finch for Network in 1976. James Dean was nominated twice after his death – for East of Eden and Giant – but did not win. Here it is Heath you sure deserve it 🙂

See he was right when he asked..
Why so Serious??
I was reading your blog cause I miss you Sand, Today I saw some old friends and I missed our chats, our laughs and craziness. When I got home I had the same feeling I used to have after going out together and acting like ourselves. I really hope you are happy I wish you would have the chance to meet my other half you would have loved him simply cause he makes me happy Sand He really does in a way he helped me get over losing you. I somehow missed seeing your blog the first on the list of my updated blog roll.
I really hope you are happy wherever you are and really wish you would come to visit soon even in a dream. Do not be a stranger. Be Happy and Well my friend.

I have been tagged by Paul twice to write 25 random things about me and here it is, 50 random things about me. I have used an old post I wrote and made slight changes. Here we go…

  1. I am a coffee person.. I can have coffee anytime of the day.
  2. I only like to drink diet coke or Pepsi.
  3. I love to smoke.
  4. I love watching movies.
  5. I am a classic Gemini, the characteristics fits like a glove.
  6. I talk a lot.
  7. I hate to seem scared or weak in front of any one.
  8. I wish I could travel all over the world.
  9. I love Prague.
  10. I have a tattoo on my forearm.
  11. I wish I could make the alcohol numbness effect last for hours, but I hate its taste. 
  12. I would love to live by the sea.
  13. I love it when I come home to an empty house.
  14. I cannot live without my music.
  15. I have a soundtrack for every single day in my life.
  16. I would prefer to be rich than famous.
  17. I never forget the wrong doings of anyone.. The closer the person the harder for me to forgive.
  18. If I have a special power it would be reading people’s minds.
  19. I love the colors brown, blue, and orange.
  20. I love watching shows about crime. My favorite shows are CSI, and CSI Miami.
  21. I have had a stalker once.. It did not feel that bad.
  22. I love Rock music..
  23. I love going to live concerts.
  24. Colin Farrell is my favorite actor.
  25. I am more disturbed than what most people think.
  26. I have trouble sleeping for 4 years now.
  27. I love to travel.
  28. I admire disturbed people more than I admire smart ones.
  29. I like being busy with work then sitting idly doing nothing.
  30. I love to read.
  31. Lonely long walks are one of my favorite things as long as I have my music on.
  32. I love to sit a while in bed before sleeping just strayed in my thoughts.
  33. I love the dark.
  34. Sometimes I think everyone out there wants something out of me.
  35. I sometimes get sick of being morbid all the time.
  36. My conversation was called morbid, negative, and venomous.
  37. I love driving aimlessly in empty streets late at night.
  38. I wonder about people’s dark secrets when I first meet them.
  39. I wish I was a great guitarist.
  40. I have written more than one short stories.
  41. My dreams freak me out most of the time.
  42. I do not give a shit about what people think.
  43. I love to chew gum and make the most annoying sound when I do that.
  44. I love making to do lists.
  45. I would rather enjoy the moment than think about the future.
  46. I do not like being in the centre of attention.
  47. I like it when I handle my own problems.
  48. I am not a romantic person.
  49. I strike people as being a cold person.
  50. I used to be a tomboy when I was growing up I think I still am somehow.
  51. I like to make small boats out of candy or smoke wrappings 



Among the blue smoke I simply sat feeling like floating while still in place wondering how wrong to feel this grace. I stopped wondering and swiftly float, to the far end with no clue to where I will go but it didn’t matter and I didn’t care. I knew it wouldn’t last this type of feeling could never last.

I kept on floating from here and there without any notice without any care, I knew at one point he will appear and his cold touch will make me feel shedders like penetrating spears. I could do not care less how it always made me blue and his cruelty which I always pursue.

But he was my friend and he was always there in my moments of weakness and despair. He was always around when I felt low and kept telling me that he is bestowed. The one who offers all peace and serine, all the things that I wished were mine. I was floating in the place and creeping slowly here and there, till from the corner of my eyes I saw him appear with his shinny posterior and cold touch.

 He slowly came with beauty and grace, with a grin on his face he welcomed me, I knew this time he wouldn’t let me be. We started coming closer and held out our hands.

Calmness and serenity filled me and his coldness sipped through my fingers like melted mercury. I looked to his eyes and through his soul feeling we are one and I have to go. It was filled with colors and Silhouettes, severing all the ties that we once thread. Fogging seeped through my brain and I let go without any vain.

Suddenly it was quite and nothing was there, a body lied on the ground bare with nothing but a burned cigarette and a gun barrel with smoke coming out of it. 

We had a very special Vday this year me and Shamel, Here is the pictures if you care to see..

Check out the offical song of that day 😀

I received the most hilarious email from a new HR hired person which I never understood his position but coming to now. This guy’s job is to alert people who work a lot to have a life and not over work themselves as they are an asset to the company, So here is the email:

Dear Sarah,

It was during the weekly report that was noticed that you have the average of 123.45 working hours logged to the system which in fact your average working hours at work should be 40 hours per the week.

It has come to our attention that on last Saturday which was the 14th of February the official Valentine’s Day that you logged on the system for 11 consecutive hours which is considered an official off day. Also since you are logged on the system to be engaged we suggest that you spend the weekend with your family, friends and fiancée.

We are very keen that you drop your working hours to the expected rate so you would not burn yourself out since you are a working asset in the company.

Appreciate your compliance.

Best Regards,


I laughed my ass off with this one.

Really amazing, don’t you think.

Another one a girl in the smoking room was complaining that her manager is complaining she is spending a lot of working hours on Face Book, which I almost remarked “mesh entee el be2edeek el 3aiza 2at3aha added him on face book. Do not complain about it now you idiot.”

LOL NO Comment


I was intending to write my pink Valentine’s day post since that this is the first year I have one as a notarise bachelors of the century but as I said will keep this one for a pinky moment. Know that it was special and that is enough for now.

I started the week with dark nails usually a not good start but hope the jinx would be broken cause I like the colour that my mother so adequately refer to as “El bab 2afal 3ala edeek”. LOL parents will be parents I presume. 

I am bored out of my mind and Do not know if I am going to be in the sales type of mood today or not, let’s hope that the powers that cancelled my first pitch meeting today will work on the other four. “Please let it”.
I do not know what I want to say here its one of those un subjected and totally reasonless posts which I thought I am over but obviously not.

Do you think its a dark week cause I put the nail polish or is it the other way around? Will never know I guess. Anyhow Let the Dark Nailed Week Pass in Peace.

Say Ameen.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It’s not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. “

Now, tell me what’s yours?

1-      I like smoking

2-      Have been chain smoking ever since I got back to work.

3-      I have a lot of people who likes to hit on my since I got engaged just for that reason.

4-      I am known to be serious at work and not tolerable character.

5-      I wonder if what i wear to work affects my sales figures.

You are invited to share whatever random facts you know about me and it will be published. If you think you know me now is the time you brag about it. PITCH IN

The Pitchers:

Ma-3lina: A very caring person but do not like to show it much. Loves dipping all sort of food ;)) Don’t like long sleeves lol always meshmera.. summer or winter  

Paul & Ema: 

1- Not as tough as you try to seem

2- Loves your husband to be more than you show. 

3- Very tough and sometimes intolerable at work. 

4- People feels threaten from you at work cause you look too good. 

5- You do not only look too good you R TOO GOOD 

Well I do not know you much so i am going to state the obvious: 

1- You are a Gemini and I think you really match. 

2- Your blog is really interesting and have a lot of followers. 

3- You are a nicer person here than at work 🙂


here is what I know:
– You are Lord Slop fiancée.
– He will regret marrying you for the rest of his life.
– He is not as brave as he pretends to be.

*Trust me I know from a very close source at least I used to be anyway*
You know how when you’re listening to music playing from another room? And you’re singing along because it’s a tune that you really love? When a door closes or a train passes so you can’t hear the music anymore, but you sing along anyway… then, no matter how much time passes, when you hear the music again you’re still in exact same time with it. That’s what it’s like.

Music from another Room – 1998

It seems to me that love is everywhere. Often, it’s not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it’s always there – fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know, none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge – they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I’ve got a sneaking suspicion… love actually is all around. 
Love Actually – 2003
Well I really need to talk about this to get it out of my system ever since yesterday the sense of happened before has been killing me it is so weird yes I have been through this before and it went away all on its own but this time it seems I am unable to shake it. This feeling went away when we were invited to a wedding me and Shamel my fiancee and I could not help to feel that this is new but till this very moment even me sitting down writing this post seems oddly familiar. Although my life through out this week has been nothing but that. My sister got divorced again and moved in to our house something that never got to that phase before. My brother decided to kick a habit that was harmful to him and move on also something that never happened before. I ditched work yesterday something I never done. I did not answer any business calls through
 out the day something that is so not me. So you see technically speaking I have been doing a lot of “New” things but it did not feel that way.
The thing that have to be mentioned the wedding we attended a luxuries wedding that cost around 3/4 million LE held in The Four Seasons hotel was nice that it required me to receive my Valentine’s gift early which was a soiree dress to match the occasion I am sorry to say that it cost my fiancee a fortune but he says I looked dazzling and I better have been taking into consideration how much he paid for it.. Here is the pictures of the event the ones we could take anyway

Us while we were on our way out

The setting before the bride and groom arrived

Where I spend most of my breaks what I like to call the smoking passage 🙂

The View from the Meeting Room

My desk at Mid day on a busy day

Another angel for my desk on a busy day

Have not been tagged in quiet a long time and but I have been tagged recentyl by Paul the newest blogger around the block so I have to answer that one so I would not burst his bubble. So here we go..

Favorite color: Blue and brown

 Favorite perfume (guys): Fahrenheit

 Favorite perfume (girls): Elizabeth Arden

 Favorite pj brand: Marks and Spencer

 Favorite clothes brand in general: Zara

 Favorite person in the entire world: My nephew and my fiancée not in any particular order

 Favorite country: Prague

 Favorite car: Mini baby.

 Favorite sport: Volleyball

Favorite sport player: Albert Hannemann

 Favorite spot in the World: The old city in Prague

 Favorite animal: Fishes “not really a pet person

 Favorite movie: Fight Club

 Favorite singer: Captain Robert from Abney Park

 Favorite day in the week: Saturday

 Favorite time of the day: Dawn

 Favorite holiday season: Valentines

 Favorite number: 1

 Favorite food: Chicken

 Favorite chocolate: After Eight

Favorite cartoon: Tom & Jerry

 Favorite blogger: quiet a lot, Shamel, Posh Lemon, Maram, and Mazen

 Favorite Flavor Ice Cream: Misteeka do not know this one in English

 Favorite Mobile Brand: Nokia

 Favorite name: Anas, Yaseen

Favorite hobby: Reading

Favorite room in my house: Anywhere empty around the house.

Favorite Fruit: Apples

Favorite flower: Daisies.

Favorite Quran Reciter: Masharee Rashed

Favorite Ayah: Al Rahman

Favorite Website: Google and Post a secret

I tag Mazen, LifeGeeked, and Jar of Juice.



I stood in line at the coffee shop stand waiting for my turn to get my morning coffee not quiet awake yet waiting for the caffeine fix to wake me up. It is usually ordinary usually the same, the same faces the same people the same drinks but I was brought back to reality by the refreshing smell that filled my nose. I looked up from my black berry trying to locate the smell. There she was, standing in grace. Looking at her watch while fixing her hair with her other hand and our eyes met. The current was so strong through my spine like I was getting an invisible powerful shock. She looked up from her watch upon feeling she was being watched and met my eyes. She slightly smiled and I could feel her looking at me in the same manner I was at her. Our eyes met again and then slowly our sight went down to the golden ring in her right hand and she was looking at the same on mine. We looked back at each other and she shyly looked away unintentionally touching her ring, I was doing the same. We both woke up on the sound of the coffee shop person giving us our drinks we picked them up and headed to the door with my head filled with the what ifs and what could have been.

We were so close behind each other I opened the door and let her out the cold breeze met me and brought me back to reality as I headed towards the big glass entry all the what ifs that filled my head disappeared like the dry leaves does in autumn and was brought back to reality by my cell. Ringing and on the screen I read her name, my fiancée. I answered saying “missed you love”

Insipred by waiting in line @ Star Bucks – Nile Towers