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Me, Myself, & My Moods

May 3, 2009

Okie, lately I have been extremly tired no matter how many hours I sleep I have had constant headaches that do not seem to go away no matter how many pain killers I take. I have became so sensitive to alot of things I feel no body wants to hear my out which results my […]

What is wrong?

April 30, 2009

Back in school they used to call me the ice queen cause I never used to cry, no matter how insulted or humiliated I am, you could see how humiliated I am you could see the glass wall forming in my eyes but it never cracks. I was like that. But now a days I […]


March 26, 2009

Have you ever felt that you are going around in circles and you are bored out of your mind from everything and tired to the extent you feel like a hollow thousand years old tree yet you are only 27 and not even quiet there yet. You are tired from being jammed at work, you […]


March 5, 2009

Okie lately I have been having time laps meaning that I would be sitting waiting for a check at a coffee place or restaurant and suddenly I would find myself left with the change and not remembering when I have paid and when did the guy actually took the money. Trivial you would say? Okie, […]


March 3, 2009

Sometimes, I wonder if this would be all what life has to offer and If  I will still want to be around. Sometimes, I think that I am living beside every one Else’s waiting for what I have no idea. Sometimes, I think I am not like every one else which is not a good […]

February 18, 2009

Among the blue smoke I simply sat feeling like floating while still in place wondering how wrong to feel this grace. I stopped wondering and swiftly float, to the far end with no clue to where I will go but it didn’t matter and I didn’t care. I knew it wouldn’t last this type of […]

February 15, 2009

I was intending to write my pink Valentine’s day post since that this is the first year I have one as a notarise bachelors of the century but as I said will keep this one for a pinky moment. Know that it was special and that is enough for now. I started the week with […]

Random facts about me:

February 12, 2009

1-      I like smoking 2-      Have been chain smoking ever since I got back to work. 3-      I have a lot of people who likes to hit on my since I got engaged just for that reason. 4-      I am known to be serious at work and not tolerable character. 5-      I wonder if what […]

Again Déjà Vu

February 6, 2009

Well I really need to talk about this to get it out of my system ever since yesterday the sense of happened before has been killing me it is so weird yes I have been through this before and it went away all on its own but this time it seems I am unable to […]


February 1, 2009

Again with my sleeping habits I mean this blog has become about my sleeping habits more than what I actually do when I am awake Fuck.. “Now that being vented, here we go” Flashes, yes ladies and gentlemen that what I officially see when I close my eyes and want to sleep red flashes that are […]

A Moment of Clarity

January 27, 2009

Again here I am sitting on my laptop at 3:41 AM thinking what the hell is going on? Today was not a nice day yes had nice parts but the over all progress is not cool at all.  Have you ever wondered that may be you are the root of all the problems that are […]


January 26, 2009

Well lately I have been feeling that I am changing how exactly I do not know its like when you are on a diet and you do not feel you are loosing the weight until you are actually being told by people or notice it through clothes. This is what I am feeling and its […]

Until It Sleeps

January 21, 2009

What exactly I have no freaking idea all that I know is that it has been keeping me from sleeping after a tiresome long day at work that usually sends me to bed like a corps but not today obviously. Here it is 2 AM and I am sitting on my laptop after trying every […]

It is Déjà vu.. Wait did I say that before?

January 15, 2009

It seems that everything in my life at the moment have a strong sense f Déjà vu do not have a clue why but all I know it does. Each and every single aspect of the day has a sense of repetitiveness to it, I have been here before, I have said this before. This […]

In my Dreams

January 13, 2009

Apparently it came to my attention that I have a story stuck in my head and it comes to me through my dreams and keep on nagging to get out and it made me figure out that it will not go away till I write it down for my brain to have a space to […]

The Extra Space

December 15, 2008

Okie for those of you who did not know I had this raw with my sister and the result was that she took my nephew and left and also for those of you who did not know Saif (My Nephew) has been around since the day he was born practically I raised him and I […]

Sick as a dog and the Feast

December 8, 2008

Okay been sick as a dog for the past couple of days do not know if its a stomach virus or something in the air but been throwing up like there is no tomorrow and having a fever that made moving seems like a very hard task for my aching all over body. Do not […]

I Hate that..

December 1, 2008

– My stupid temper made me not being able to be with my nephew for two weeks now I miss him to pieces even though he drives me nuts all the time.– I keep checking the phone fearing I did not hear it for a certain someone to call while I know they would not.– […]

The Notion

October 9, 2008

Sometimes I hate my life for how senseless and aimless it seems most of the time, like the rest of the crowd my life is more about work and the rest of the drifters that pass by every once in a while and mostly all of them want something out of you, whether its materialistic […]

All of sudden

October 3, 2008

I have been wondering about something I never actually seem to understand.. how can friends change over night and loose interest and care in another person who thought they were quiet close?It came to my attention that a couple of friends who I love to pieces and used to think they are pretty close suddenly […]